Edited, because it's too TMI.
It's such a cliche, but it's true. I've been broken up for almost three months now and rather than getting easier it seems to get harder every day. Half our friends think we'll get back together, adding to the pressure. But I am at the end of my rope.
I never wanted a relationship filled with angst. I don't want tear-filled breakups followed by reunion after reunion. I don't want to cry on friend's shoulders just to show up a month later at their party hand in hand with the cause of those tears. We had become "that" couple, the one who was always just about to break up or just about to get back together. I can't blame people for doubting me this time.
But I just can't anymore. So somehow I need to find a way.